I was in high school the last time I remember it happening. Bored in Psychology class, we were let out onto campus in the eerily, near-totality grey light. It was unlike anything I had ever experienced, and while solar eclipses are fairly common, to be in the path where the sun is swallowed whole is a rare sight. We students wandered for a few minutes feeling as if the world we knew was not our own until, finally, the sun came forth again. While it was brief, it had an impact on me. I do not remember too many high school moments with such clarity, and this is one of them.
Here in the USA on August 21st we have a sweeping solar eclipse across the continent, starting off in Oregon and moving southeast, finally leaving us in South Carolina. Some places will have nearly 3 minutes of totality. Not be repeated for another 17 years.
Solar eclipses have played a fundamentally important role throughout human history, often portending God's displeasure--foretelling disease, famine, and general calumny.
Solar eclipses have also fueled scientific inquiry, helping to confirm Einstein's theory of relativity as well as understanding gravitational variations by large objects.
Pre-Enlightenment, many cultures thought that an eclipse meant that the sun was being actively swallowed. The Vietnamese believed the Sun was eaten by a frog for example, the Vikings: consumed by wolves, and the Chinese understood that the sun was being swallowed by a celestial dragon.
Metaphorically, these stories are important to the human condition. It is interesting to me that cultures many, many miles apart developed similar mythological conclusions about a celestial event. As a tarot reader, narratives are important: they help us find the commonality of what it means to be human, and as humans, how we make meaning.
So I propose a very simple two-card spread to celebrate and investigate what an inner eclipse feels like in your own spiritual and emotional landscape.
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As always, I love your stories, tell me yours, what is the nature of your dragon, and what does he wish to hide?
This tarotscope was written in the shadow of another Mercury Retrograde.
Mercury stations retrograde officially on August 12th in Virgo until finally going direct on
September 5th in Leo. As per usual, back up your tech, take extra precautions when traveling, and avoid signing contracts if you can.
Usually, I can tell a retrograde is coming just on the tarotscopes I pull for everyone but this month is different. This month is largely positive for most people and it does reflect a focus on love and relationships which supports the energy of a super Venus (the planet of love and relationships) also happening during this period.
This month we have 4 Major Arcana, 3 Aces, 1 Cup, 1 Pentacle, 3 Wands and only one Court card. The focus on Major Arcana and Aces is largely extremely positive. The goal posts have moved towards big picture themes and ways of being over the nuts and bolts of living a life.
A dearth of Court cards reemphasize the focus on thematic process over navel gazing at this time. August brings gifts to many and the lack of doom and gloom cards suggests a kinder, more gentle Mercury retrograde.
May it be so!
Look, I used to NOT be 'one of those people' who would allow astrology to plan my life for me. In fact, I am more of an astronomer than an astrologer. But, paying attention specifically to what happened to me over Mercury Retrogrades has certainly changed my mind to some degree. In any case, its never a bad idea to back up your hardware and it is certainly never a bad idea to drive carefully. Even if one thinks that the Mercury Retrograde is a crock, it is a kind reminder to take care of things that can often be forgotten about-until it breaks!
Whenever a client tells me that they didn’t “hear anything I didn’t know” I smile. For the types of readings I do, it is music to my ears. While some readers might panic and think that that means they didn’t do a good job, I know that that statement is intrinsically important and relevant to the person I am reading for.
Sometimes, a tarot reading will not provide a sitter with information that is unknown for various reasons, and these various reasons speak to the true heart of tarot: a tool that functions and acts much more dynamically than merely “telling the future”.
When a reading is reiterating known information about a current state or issue, it is taking an active role in providing guidance and facilitating a spiritual journey. Its function is much more interactive than the passive role of recounting a story about the future, because I believe that tarot is really universal guidance in the present moment regarding a future state more than a window into that future state.
Perhaps that is my own time bias. I do not think time is a train on a track and we are using tarot to glimpse the next three cities on this hard rail that cannot be altered. For me, tarot is the binoculars that looks up into a tree; stems and branches peeling away and diverging, growing and moving where the future and the present intricately linked. While tarot can and often does give a best outcome of events, those outcomes are based on and connected to the guidance concerning today’s choices, choices we have power over.
So when universal guidance is repeating information we know, it is doing so because what we currently know has a direct influence on our personal journey regarding a future state. If we believe that tarot is a tool linking us to Divine knowledge, intuitive guidance, or simply our unconscious minds then we can agree that there is an intentionality in a tarot reading. So what would be the intention of repeating known information?
Affirmation-We feel or know something in the pit our being but we might also be confused, scared, uncertain or have others around us trying to convince us that what we know is incorrect. A tarot reading will often mirror what we intrinsically know is the truth of a situation, the “No, you’re NOT crazy” along with avenues for next steps. This is, by far, the greatest gift given to clients in these situations.
Confirmation-It is easy for a fortune teller to talk about a life 10 years hence, it is not immediately confirmable, and will take years before one can determine if it was accurate or not. How easy it would be to tell you about a past life, your angel guides, your future way down the road and how could you actually confirm that what I am saying is accurate? You can’t. However, a reader who is able to share information on current events that are immediately confirmable are much, much harder to “fake”. Also, detailing current events with a short probability line means that the client is able to wait out the information to see if things unfold in the way foretold before the reader leaves town. To be able to detail current events that are unknown by the reader is a greater test of skill than to speak of things that will take years to unfold, if ever.
Attention-Sometimes we know the truth of a situation but we are patently ignoring it, knowing that the truth will create action that is difficult, painful, or frightening. The tarot both lovingly and sometimes dramatically calls us back to the truth, stating something like, “This is the important thing you need to pay attention to right now, stop trying to distract yourself with other things.”
No Spoilers Allowed-The present process is so incredibly important, that the ambiguity one feels is important to a new process or transformational element that the tarot will outright refuse to give us new information. It is as if the discomfort of change cannot be alleviated, the pressure must stay in place to allow for true change to take place. I see this in action when a client needs to do some work around opening to love. Of course she wants to know when her troubadour will arrive, but the action of giving a date or time frame will actually circumvent the work that needs to take place. tarot, being a message from the Universe who knows her as well (if not better) than she knows herself, intentionally withholds information so that she does the work in present time. This I see particularly happens when the energy has been blocked for a long time.
The Question is Unimportant-We ask a future-tense related question of the tarot but the tarot knows that the future can only be ascertained by what is happening immediately in the present and so will decide to talk about present choices only.
The Matter is Still in Flux-Situations and events are still not settled, a probability line has not yet been drawn and everything is popping in and out of reality. The tarot, sensing that, seems to decide that focusing on known knowledge is more important, and more accurate, at this time rather than attempt an inaccurate analysis. I see this function in action when the answer is literally 50:50. Perhaps a client has interviewed for a position and the person involved in making the decision keeps vacillating between her and another applicant. The free will of the determiner is fluctuating so rapidly, the tarot cannot call it.
Annoyance-Finally, if we keep asking tarot the same question over and over again–without truly making any true changes in our lives since the last time we asked–the tarot can often shut down and stop passing on revelatory information. The readings become ambiguous, less distinct and one gets the sense that the tarot just doesn't want to play anymore.
Tarot readings are can be powerful insights when we ask ourselves why we might not be getting the information we want right now. Questions often come from places of fear, ego, anxiety, or loss and when we have questions from these places that do not feel so good, we need to allow the good doctor (i.e. tarot) to doctor us to better health and wellness. Tarot is a terrific diagnostic tool if we only let it be. But we cannot truly allow the work of tarot to have its astounding effect if we are only out to get ‘what we don’t know’.
Happy Birthday Cancer!
I hope your little crab self is frolicking in sun and sand this summer. What's not to love about a summer birthday?
The 'scopes are interesting this month. In aggregate we have 4 Swords, 3 Pentacles, two Cups, 1 Wand and 2 Major Arcana. For many of you there is information around communication and thought and much of that seems to be located in the work realms. The dearth of Wands and Major Arcana can mean that we are working and leveraging what we have rather than creating anything new or big in this moment. Either way, the 'Scopes on the whole are generally positive.
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A a full time professional reader, I admit, I can get mighty pedantic about things. Splitting tarot hairs with colleagues is a love of mine and I am no stranger to debating the finer points of tarot and tarot readings.
Like any reader, I also have my pet peeves and as my 2nd grade report card mentioned, "Jenna is opinionated." So here I share with you, dear reader, my opinions about white washing tarot specifically as it pertains to the Death card.
It is very common in tarot books, among tarot readers to say as soon as the Death card is cast, "Oh, yeah this is Death... but actually it really just means Transformation!" Quick to lessen the blow of the message of death, we gloss over the pain, heartache, hard reality that is the Death card and I think when we do this we are disrespecting the energy, intent and message that this card may have for us.
It is not uncommon to find tarot decks that have completely vanquished Death forever from our tarot shores, rewriting the card to mean Transformation or Phoenix Rising, "Don't worry about any of that Death business because you will rise from the ashes, girlfriend!!" Doreen Virtue's Fairy and Angel decks have done away from the messiness of Death altogether--she renamed them as Release.
The only way I actually knew she was indeed replacing the Death card with Release is because she kept the number placement that is traditional for Death: number 13. It is no coincidence that Death is in the 13th place for 13 has long been viewed as a bad luck number throughout Europe for centuries. If Death actually means Transformation or Release and was so very positive, why would it hold the 13th position?
I will say, however, that she does use Azreal who is the angel of Death, but this is done in the kindest most white washed way possible.
The emphasis here is again, on moving on. But I argue that this is not the intent of Death. The message of Death is endings, not new beginnings.
Tarot comes out of a time where 2 out of 3 children died, if someone lived to 50 that was considered a ripe elder age. There was disease, accidents, superstition and a lack of hygiene awareness or even what we would consider basic medical knowledge. Death was as close to the midaevil person as was life, and it was because of Death's intimate association with their lives that they felt the business of living more keenly. Death is a part of life, death hurts, death sucks, death is sad and death comes for everyone. This is the message of the Death card. It is a card of endings, not beginnings.
We modern humans with our technology and vaccines and seatbelts, we have done a great job distancing ourselves from Death as much as possible. Unlike our earlier ancestors however, we no longer dress the bodies of our dead, we rarely perform the service of burying our own.
Death has become sanitized, de-ritualized, and death only comes to the unlucky or aged. In our quickness to leave Death behind, we also wish to forget what he brings and the thought of Death makes us so uncomfortable we would just rather pretend he didn't exist at all.
In client sessions, I find Death to play the role of a hard stop. This relationship is ending. That job is done. That person is passing away. Death does not mince words, does not white wash its message but its message, being completely honest, is actually a kindness.
Often clients come see me when all the easy options are gone and all that is left are hard choices. Clients also see me when their higher self knows something is going to end, but their ego is still looking for some possible way to turn aside whatever it is they do not want to endure. Death is the loud and insistent voice, loud enough to be heard over the din of ego and self delusion, to prepare oneself for an ending. Perhaps that ending is not redeemed by transformation, perhaps it is just an ending...and that is sometimes all we get. Because that is life, and life is confoundingly both tragic and miraculous at the same time.
Now, I think there is a better card that speaks to Transformation, and that is Judgement. I never understood why Death was the card chosen to speak to the act of Transformation when in all honesty, Judgement does a much better job of holding that archetype. So let us allow the cards to speak and stop rewriting what they are. If tarot means to talk about transformation and moving onto new pastures then we must trust that tarot will reveal them (Judgement or 8 of Cups as an example). But when tarot shows us the Death card, it means death.
This... Ladies and Gentlemen...is what Transformation and Release look like.
Let us allow the hard work of seeing what is be what is. It is always the difficult message, the hard yet honest note from the Universe that circumvents our ego, allows us to see clearly without pride or defense, and accept gracefully what is.
Yesterday, I turned 40.
Quietly, joyfully, and feeling completely at peace with who I am, I decided to take inventory of the past 10 years of my life. What did the 30's mean for me? What did I learn, do, try, realize and participate in? What areas are coming into focus as I shift towards my 40s and what do I still need to work on?
So here, I present my 30s inventory. Taking inventory at regular intervals can be a remarkably helpful technique--looking up from the map long enough to see the road you just completed, stopping to take a breath as you carry forward again.
I learned how to leave an intense and hostile love, even when I thought it would cost me everything.
I learned you can’t fix everything with love.
I got married.
I got divorced.
I learned what it meant to have inlaws, the good and the bad.
I learned that ultimately, I had to stop compromising myself because deep down I thought that maybe I was unlovable and I should just take what I can get.
I learned that it is possible to deeply love someone but know that incompatibilities are real and can shake the foundations of even the strongest union.
I learned how to speak up for myself and communicate my needs.
I realized that I can love in ways that I have no words for, and that English is woefully inadequate to describe nuance and subtlety of feeling.
I learned comfort is a prison.
I bought my own home without any help, I only lived in rentals my entire life and I believe I am the first woman in my family to have done so.
I also learned that buying a house right before a market crashes really sucks and life isn’t fair.
I learned how to be a landlord, and I am no good at it.
I earned my Masters degree while working full time, also the first in my family to do so.
I got completely out of debt.
I bought my first brand new car (and paid it off).
My credit score makes bankers drool, very different from my 20s when I was turned away from opening a checking account. I am not a better person, I just learned how to play the game.
I learned the gift of compound interest.
I quit a career trajectory that was not working for me, it was terrifying and all I knew.
I started a business in a field that is totally unique, calling upon my deepest gifts and oldest ways of being.
I learned how to be a small business owner.
I learned how amazingly, incredibly, difficult owning one’s own business is.
I learned that, without office fetters and politics, I am capable of some amazing things.
I realized just the beginning of my own potential and it is growing.
I found out how strong, hard working, and dedicated I am.
I realized how brave I was.
I learned how to truly be of service, that includes being in service to myself as well as being of service when it is the last thing I actually want to do.
I learned how to suck it up.
I've learned humility and letting go of losses especially when they are unfair.
I suffered from a debilitating chronic health condition that almost ruined my business, but I survived intact.
I learned how to live around my chronic illness and to accept the boundaries that it gives me.
I am working on self care and placing limits for my best interest.
I learned how the medical industry works, and I learned how to advocate for my care in it.
I discovered the sanity inducing long walk.
I realized my body needs more care than I was giving her.
I am totally ok with a double digit dress size.
Investing in good skin care products are worth every penny.
I realized later that skin care should have also included my decollete.
I got my gene’s tested so I now have a good idea of what to keep an out for.
I had a run in with a sociopath who was hell bent on my destruction, but I survived and am much wiser for it.
I learned about the way I interact with people socially and was astounded by some of the realizations, I made. I realized how important it is to keep connections intact. In the past, I had a tendency to run away from difficult conversations. I did not know how to navigate complex friend relationships.
I learned how to fight for friendships and also to work through differences in them instead of walking away.
I made a startling realization on the kinds of friends I have attracted in the past and how I was diminishing myself by being in them.
I also made an astounding realization that these friendship dynamics are tied to older family dynamics in ways I never thought possible before.
I learned how to rebuild burnt bridges and also to forgive people more readily.
I committed to accepting people as is.
I stopped caring about being popular or well liked.
I stopped caring that my biological Father doesn’t want me and never will. Some people just don't deserve your light. I am still a worthy person who is deserving of Being, his abandonment does not influence my worth.
I learned about birds, native plants, and mushrooms-- the woods are more alive to me now.
I learned how to play lots and lots of board games.
I learned how to be a better cook.
I learned how to care for and triage wild animals. I know the species of bird just by the sound the babies make in the nest like a funny kind of superpower.
I learned new systems for readings in my business as well as approaches to clients in them.
I also learned more about my limitations, how my inner critic minimizes me, and I also learned how to manage and control anxiety that sought to cage me.
I learned that I am enough.
The desire for a child finally emerged in the last year, at 39 that stirring finally called, I am also okay with it not happening.
Siblings become incredibly important, and more so, as the years go on.
Parents begin to age and you worry about and for them, and seeing them gives you perspective about your own life choices.
It’s ok to ditch family members who have nothing positive to say or offer anything healthy to you.
That money you loaned, you know you ain’t getting it back, and that’s ok.
I still miss my Grandma every day.
Family dynamics are real and enduring.
I do not need to be understood to be loved.
Just when you think you have processed something and are over it, it will come up again for reexamination. I realize that I work on lifetime themes of which there are seasons rather than concrete exercises.
My connections only got deeper with the source of all things over time and I have a feeling it is in my 40s where this aspect really begins to take the center stage as I always knew it would.
I am learning to be less angry, more tolerant, more forgiving (especially of myself).
I no longer need to drive so fast anymore, I take my time, I let people in, it’s ok; I’ll get there.
I do not need to prove my competence, worth, or intelligence to anyone.
I make conscious decisions to step out of internet and social media--intentional slowdowns that have a remarkably positive effect on my spiritual life and outlook.
I learned to listen better to my intuition and also for signs that I am tracking the right course. I also have a much more nuanced view of spirituality and the dual nature of things it brings. I am on the hunt for lessons more than reasons why.
I no longer see things in black and white as often.
I am more compassionate and forgiving of others’ journeys.
I intentionally seek out the feeling of interconnectedness with nature.
I am an enduring expression of the Divine in physical form, so are you.
Happy June my friends!
Looking at the overview of cards pulled, I cannot say that there is a particular meta message coming through as the cards are kind of all over the place. There is, however, only one wand so perhaps that might mean that your career is taking a back seat to all the things that June brings like weddings, graduations, and other such fun celebrations.
Enjoy your June and play, play, play...
Welp, that is it dears and darlings! May June treat you with wellness, beauty, and kind breezes.
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Happy birthday to my Taurus friends!
May looks largely gentle, minor arcana take center stage and for the most part, we see cups (the suit of relationships and emotions) take precedence. There is an emphasis on family in particular this month throughout the signs. There are few court cards, suggesting that the energy of this month is more outward focused--practical details and things rather than inner work, and focusing on connection rather than personalities.
I've noticed over the years that May and June do tend to be quieter when it comes to tarot'scopes, may it be a quiet, enjoyable month for you as well!
There we have it, May in a nutshell!
ay your month be filled with plenty, your friendships vast, and your family strong. Until next month!
Happy Spring, everyone!
The tarot scopes, in aggregate, feel like a lot of movement, as if the very frozen nature of winter has given way to the quickening of spring. You are going to be asked for much, the call to change quick paced and unrelenting. But, the promises of that work as bright as daffodils among the last vestiges of snow.
Happy birthday, Aries! It must be so nice to have a birthday around the start of spring, the renewal of you coincides with the renewal of the northern hemisphere, what is not to love?
April however, has you grappling with some issues concerning what you have vs. what you can do with it. There will be moments when you will just have to make do with what you got. 9/wands however, is a card of perseverance as much as it is of struggle so the energy is to keep going. You are filled with light, promises, investments and momentum right now; you might be panting with exertion but know that the climb is worth it!
This month your myopia may get the better of you. You may find yourself struggling to make a decision in some area of your life; sleepless nights where you play with each choice, turning it over and over in your mind with no easy solution. 4/Cups suggests that there is a solution, a very good one, in fact, that you are ignoring.
What are you resisting? What feels like a difficult or implausible choice? What are you afraid to try? What kind of ego is wrapped up in the implications of your choices? You have to let go of the three cups you now hold to grab the 4th from the sky, you have try something new and let go of previous expectations.
A lovely month for you, Gemini, you may find yourself at the mercy of others' gorgeous generosity. It might be financial, it might be emotional, it could even be random kindness from complete strangers. There is an energy about you that is radiating a need that others want to fill.
Gemini are not the best at accepting offers graciously; you are an independent bunch who prefer to "figure it out on my own, thank you very much." This month, feel the blessings of those who wish to come to your aid and thank the Universe for granting your the abundance you need in your life rather than turning it aside because it makes you shy or uncomfortable. Accept the blessing.
Cancer--Wheel of Fortune-
April might be a chaotic month for you, Cancer. That, or you are unsettled, unable to make a decision, feeling uncertain and out of control. Yes, you are out of control. We are all out of control, the Universe is also out of control, expanding and careening out into the unknown void.
For this month, reflect deeply on the areas of your life where you need to control, reflect deeply on the areas of your life that might feel better if you stepped back a bit. Think consciously about your fear of ambiguity and messiness, watch how your anxiety attempts to close down the long and meandering conversation with God.
April will feel like you are in a battle of wills against yourself, lion. You may find that you are placing yourself into your very own hall of mirrors. Are you rationalizing things to make yourself look a certain way? Are you arguing defensively with others about a position you are dead set to keep? Who are you not listening to, and what are they saying?
This month, you are going to be wrong about something, and you will be hard pressed to admit it to yourself or others. This month will be a battle for your ego and your heart. The best way forward is to listen to others, deeply listen to what they have to say about you to you. You are not seeing things clearly and they are your way out, no matter how hard it might be to listen; they are trying to help.
This month you are being called to organize and defend your position. If you are aggressive, clever, quick, and skillful you will win. This winning will be at the cost of others. There will be a victory, yours, but know that it comes at a cost.
Do not let guilt or fear turn you aside from your own advantage, life ebbs and flows for everyone and in this moment you are being called to step up to the plate and take what is yours, your skills, your attributes, your ethics--all of these things are the reason why you are entitled. Don't play small, Virgo, step into the largess of what you are capable of.
There is something that you need to leave. It isn't working. It's going to hurt, this good bye. But, comfort is a prison and perhaps you have been in a comfortable prison too long, or not even comfortable but rather, just the devil you know.
I am here to tell you that the devil you don't know is actually an angel. That angel has been sent by God to deliver you to something better, something spectacular. Will you allow him to guide your boat to better waters, even though you are not sure of the way? Are you going to release control so Spirit can find a way in and take you where you need to go?
A lovely month is in store for you, Scorpio. If you have been thinking to get your health and wellness on track, the energy certainly supports a strong body and a strong mind. If you have been struggling with an illness, perhaps this month you will find it easier to deal with.
The Sun is also great energetically to look for and get a job you want, and it is also very beneficial for your social life and enjoyment of all things positive. Enjoy this lovely vibrant energy and take life by the reigns!
This King's appearance to you this month speaks to a creative mastery of some type. What creative project, vision, or trip are you thinking to develop or employ? What do you know how to make that you can teach others? What inner light have you been hiding from the world?
This King is unabashedly confident in his creative pursuits, his warmth, his charisma, and his radiant making. This King will infuse you with the motivation you need to work on a project or take it to a new level. This is wonderful, vibrant energy that you can use from work, to your home based business and everything in between.
This King's appearance to you this month speaks to an intellectual and communicative mastery. What do you need to teach, model after or learn? In what ways can you bring clarity, focus, logic and strategic skill to your life and the others in it with you?
King of Swords is fair, direct, honest, intelligent, and whole heartedly a servant of good works. This King will stand behind you, adding the wind to your sails as you communicate over the rough seas of tricky negotiations. You will talk, and by the intelligence of that, they will listen. Be impartial.
There is something, or someone, that you need to let go of. There is a place or a time you cannot have anymore. There is a version of you that is over, done with, an inconvenient specter to who you are becoming today.
5/Cups is a mourners card. Allow yourself to feel the sadness of leaving, shedding, walking away. Allow yourself to grieve for what was or what could never be. It is done. Let it be done.
You may find yourself noticing signs, symbols, and synchronicities. The universe is trying to tell you something, it fact the Universe might be trying to tell you a number of things. 8/Wands can often mean signs from heaven, like manna, all you need to do is hold out your hand or gather the evidence around you. this means that you have to pay attention.
My advice for you here is to put your smart phone down. Stand in line without distracting yourself, sit at a bus stop bench and cast your eyes about the real world, the real Universe unfolding around you, within you, right next to you. The signs are there, they are everywhere. Once you figure out what Spirit is trying to say, you will know what to do, but first...look up!
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Happy Birthday Pisces!
And welcome Spring!
The overall feeling of the cards I pulled for ya'll is one of 'taking care of your business'. Many of the cards talk about work, projects, and stepping up to the plate.
What do you need to be responsible for?
What feels good take responsibility of?
3 out of the 4 pages make an appearance, indicating that all of us will be getting interesting news of various topics, pages are messengers and this spring they are brining the newness that only a new world, a new spring can bring.
Lastly, there are a few cards that concern themselves with hearth and home, so keeping it domestic feels good, too. Time to prune away the wood, and swep out the underbrush so the daffodils can joyously spring forth!
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